I just got back from Amman, Jordan. I was there for 4 days attending the Arab-Danish Women Blogger’s workshop. I received an invitation to this event back in November…but didn’t want to blog about it till it was a done deal. So many times plans change.
I’ve attempted to blog about the event several times. I keep feeling like I won’t do it justice. Words can’t possibly describe what a truly epic journey this was for me. Well, maybe thousands of words might. But with my self-imposed 1000 word limit per post (give or take a few hundred), synthesis will be a necessary process.
To really describe what this journey meant to me, at this moment in my life, I’d have to tell you all about the last nine years of my life. You know, those years where three beautiful souls made their way to this earthly plane via my body. Where my greatest joy and best means of survival was through surrendering ever more to the microcosm of my home life. Those early years where I needed, viscerally, to be on the same wavelength as my babies, so that I could distinguish each cry (tired, hungry, gassy, bored, you name it), and anticipate each need. Those years where sleep was the most precious commodity. Those years where the jewels of the universe where laid at my feet, time and again, in the form of my daughter’s smile, my son’s newest words, or the softness of a sleeping face.
So to be able to leave home for five whole nights is shocking, so abrupt in a way. I don’t want this whole phase to just roll over and give way to a new one without at least pausing to honor it. (And even “pausing” is a new luxury). I have been in the trenches for so long that I forgot what civilian life was like. You mean, when you are tired, you just sleep? I’m going to need some major re-integration to assimilate all this.
Ok, I think that gives a pretty good background as to where I’m coming from. How about we talk about the trip then. I was totally thrilled to be in a new country, for one. Amman is a beautiful city, laid out on seven hills; it’s been continuously inhabited for longer than almost any other city in the world. The local people that I encountered were warm and quite respectful. In fact I felt more comfortable walking around in Amman than I do in Marrakesh where I’m likely to get stared at, commented on by gawkers, hustled by tourist guides, and otherwise had my space invaded. Amman rules, in that way.
The flip side? Everyone smokes. Amman, I will miss you, but I brought part of you home with me, in the form of second-hand smoke carefully stored in the lining of my lungs. I had no trouble collecting this souvenir, opportunities were ample. Seriously, I hardly met anyone who wasn’t a smoker. From dainty ultra-slims to sheesha, that exotic water pipe a la caterpillar in Alice in Wonderland. There is no gender gap in smoking, either. Yay! Um, not. I imagine Virginia slims looking down approvingly from high above the smoke cloud. You’ve come a long way, baby. I was slightly nauseous the whole time I was in Amman. I need to either take up smoking (gag), or go detox in the Himalayas.
I spent a lot of my time comparing and contrasting Amman with Marrakesh. Here are some of my notes, which may not mean much to you, unless you live in either of these cities.
Music. Same music on the radio, alternating Usher and Rihanna with Tamer Hosny and Nancy Ajram.
Mixed identity architecture. Same way the city is half construction-site, half slick, shiny buildings…half ancient and half that kind of globalized modern look that denotes nowhere in particular. That’s familiar.
Weekends. In the Middle East, weekends are Thursday and Friday. I went out Friday morning and there was not a soul out or a shop open, it was a “Sunday feeling”. And Saturday was be “Monday”. It makes total sense for a predominantly Muslim country, since Friday is the community prayer day for Muslims.
Language. I know it’s all called Arabic, but Moroccan and Jordanian are so vastly different. I didn’t even bother speaking Moroccan, I just spoke Modern Standard Arabic, trying to add a Middle Eastern lilt. My vowels gave me away though, everyone could guess right away that I was either Tunisian or Moroccan. But seriously, our languages are so different. For example, in Morocco we say siri toul, which means “go straight”. Well in Jordan it’s, dalli doghri. Don’t bother looking for similarities. It just made me realize that the North African identity is very different from the Middle Eastern one.
Food. After having eaten in Middle Eastern restaurants all over the world, I was thrilled to be eating hummus, baba ghanoush, kibbeh, lebneh etc. in the Middle East. The food was so perfect, I almost cried. And so colorful, and varied. Fyi, it has nothing in common with Moroccan food, which is also amazing.
Well folks, it’s I’m-gonna-regret-being-up-this-late-tomorrow o’clock. So I’ll wrap up with a few pics. As for the actual workshop, well, there are so many insights, inspirations, beautiful connections, stimulating discussions, that I want to give it its own blog post…soon insha Allah!
The pics. My first Middle Eastern meal. Clockwise from top left: Arrugula salad, Lebneh (cheesy yogurt), Hummus, Salata. On the sides were wraps stuffed with Zeit ou Zaatar.
Amman by night:
The oh so rare self-portrait.